Saturday, June 24, 2006
i must stop sulking everytime im asked to do smth i dont want to do. i must stop showing a black face. i must stop pretending to nt hear wht mummy n daddy says. i must stop mumbling my answers to them. i must stop being a spoiled brat. i must stop waiting for everything to be spoon-fed to me. i must stop letting daddy down over n over agn. i must stop letting daddy worry over e r/s between mummy n me. i must stop letting daddy sigh over things i do wrong. i must stop arguing w mummy. i must stop treating them like shit. hais.
its gonna be hard bt i'll try my v best, even if it means holding back everything i want to say until i explode one day.
i need time to pass slowly now. even slower thn whn being in sch, PLEASE? i've got lots more to study. so far i've done less thn one chapter per subject. n i need to take a few hrs to cover one chapter. n thts just e understanding part. no memorizing involved. can someone just freeze time so i can study? i promise i'll make full use of my time thn. :(
stressed n confused. taking things one at a time. midyrs, first.
recently i've been listening to e song Unfaithful by Rihanna. great song. i'll listen to it countless times w/o getting sick of it. thts probably why my msn nick has been phrases from e song e past few times.
Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company
He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
But clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true
And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer
I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss up on my cheek
He's here reluctantly
As if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well
Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer
Our Love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore
Uh
Anymore (anymore)
I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
And I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer (a murderer)
fo u ndm y se l f& r an a way
@ 5:07 PM
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