Wednesday, August 09, 2006
why is it so easy for me to talk to someone bout their problems bt nt talk abt my own? half e time, or more, ppl ask me whether im alright. i always ans w a yes. truth is, im lying. im nt alright at all. e problem is tht i cant put it all down in words. hais. i just find it difficult. its always as if i only can say a few points bout smth. bt actually its more thn tht. there's always so much going on in this little brain of mine.
okay. so tht day daddy had a talk w me. he linked everything in my life to my results. e hr long conversation (actually i think it cant be considered a conversation cos he did 99.99% of the talking) ranged from nt reading enough newspapers for general knowledge, to nt treating my mom well, and to how i wake up every morning w a sulky face instead of a smile tht will brighten up everyone's day. hah. bt thn this time compared to all e long n serious talks he had w me for a past few yrs was e most influential one i think. i finally woke up from some of those stupid dreams tht i was in. i've realised tht i need to do smth quick if i wanted to get anywhere after this yr. i promise i'll work extra hard for e coming promos. no more one-two-days-before-exam-thn-study thing for me already. i so rmb e feelings i had during psle n o lvls. )=
stopping thinking abt it amanda! its over already! u knw its all in e past already. shldnt u have tht trust in ppl nw? y is it so difficult for u to trust ppl agn? wake up! ugh. SERVE U RIGHT for reading all those past entries of tht blog anyways.
shit. im feeling horrible now.
fo u ndm y se l f& r an a way
@ 11:10 PM
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